am i a woman of color?
September 27, 2009 § 4 Comments
am i a woman of color?
on one hand that seems like an obvious answer…yes…
and for most of my life i have thought the same thing
if i was talking to a group of white feminists. working class and lower middle class white feminists. and they told me that they had so much to deal with in their own lives they did not have the time or energy to deal with the how i was dealing with life being a woman of color. that yes the personal is political. but personally they just didnt know what to do about the woc thing i go through daily and if i would just tell them what i wanted them to do then they will consider if they can afford to see my issues as vital to the community. if that is what they told me. i would probably tell them to go fuck themselves and refuse to associate myself with their movement.
because they dont consider me to be a part of their movement.
the whole- all of us are equal just some people are more equal than others.
well, actually that is what i did. i told them to go fuck themselves. and refused to be called or call myself a feminist. for a decade.
even now i squirm under the title.
now i know it isnt fair to compare women of color to clueless white feminist. except that it is fair.
i called myself a woman of color because i loved how it put me in solidarity with women of color all over the world. i loved the way that it proclaimed that we are the majority. that our differences, all of the different cultures that women create all around the world. is what keeps the world spinning and circling the sun.
but most third world women dont use the term women of color. ive more heard terms like: third world women, non-western women, women in the developing world, etc. etc. maybe ‘women of color’ is a designation for western/first world non-white women.
by that idea i am a woman of color. and being a woc does not indicate that i am in solidarity with third world women. any more than being a feminist means that you are in solidarity with women of color or third world women. it does state implicitly that i am responsible to and accountable to third world women. and the best way i have found to be in solidarity with white women as white, is to refuse to do anti racism 101. to stop feeding the beast.
these thoughts arent completed. this is not a manifesta. it is me trying to figure out where i fit into the world. and where is my community.
lately i have been experimenting being in community with the universe and arguing with the stars.
but on planet earth. i havent really been writing a lot publicly cuz anything i say can get twisted to fit into someone else’s fears and then drama occurs. and frankly i got enough drama in this life already. i got enough people who twist my words into a fantasy.