August 20, 2009 § 3 Comments
i am thinking about bravery. you know for so long i hated the word brave. because i connected to weakness…oh…that is so brave you… especially when it was connected to something as simple as going to the west bank or congo. srsly. if i want points in the world. it is not from the act of going to some of the most amazing places i have ever been. ppl live there everyday. they love, and eat dinner, they worry about their kids, they take the trash out, they dance at weddings. nothing extraordinary except everything.
but now i think i am going to own words like bravery and courageous. courage from the word coeur heart. and that is what i imagine bravery is. like malcolm x who died to night and my heart sinks for a moment every time he dies…i have to teach aza that i am malcolm x stand up that the kids do at the end. maybe that is what courage is: the balance/ the movement between desperation and confidence. when you know the world has so much evil in it. but you are still willing to go out into it. in part of a desperation to survive and in part in a confidence that you can not only survive but evolve (grow?)