so this is freedom
August 21, 2010 § 2 Comments
so this is freedom. this feeling, this knowledge that i am here. in this body.
that i am embedded in this body. in this space. in this moment in time.
knowing, feeling, living that there is space for girls like us.
that no matter what happens. whatever is taken from me. whatever is given to me. i can know/live that i am embedded in this world. right now. right here. i can always return to this knowledge. because it is real. it is fundamental. it is the deep silence from which my thoughts and stories spring.
so this is the freedom that has been available to me the whole time. that i have experienced glimpses of.
so this is the peace that passeth understanding. it is not an airy fairy peace. it is a skin, blood, muscles, air, hearing, seeing right now. right here. in this body. peace.
so this is contentment. that surpasses excitement and anticipation and nostalgia.
so this is happiness. to not be afraid of the pain.