not a resource
January 25, 2011 § 6 Comments
1. so this kinda weird thing happened. i wrote this lil post about my experiences with a birthy magazine. and really i just wrote it for me, so i could get over my creative block and get on with what i thought was really important. and really i didnt think that anyone would really care about it. cause im little. they are big. that is just the way things are.
anyways a couple of birthy folks i know contacted me about it. and one of them asked if she could post it to this doula forum. and then there was a whole discussion about it. but, i didnt write the post b/c i was trying to call the birthy mag out, i wrote it because one, it was the truth and two, i needed to blog it to move on.
what was weird that means that a bunch of people who i dont think normally read my work, and thus didnt understand the context of that post, responded in ways that were…off. i mean this blog is 3 1/2 years old, its covered a good amount of ground. and one of my intentions with this blog was that it was not going to focus on anti-racism. (i was an anti racism consultant/trainer and got really burnt out and traumatized from the work…) i spend months not mentioning racism. but still the posts that get the most coverage are the ones that center critical race theory.
i admit i am a little frustrated by this. i am totally totally cool with people sharing my work. i just get frustrated being pigeonholed or boxed in to ‘anti racism’ chick/resource. i mean look at the categories bar (oh wait i dont think that shows on this blog theme) well, there isnt even a category for racism… i dont want to be a resource. to quote ash ( who i think is quoting utah phillips) ‘you are a human resource. do you know what happens to resources? want to know? look at mines, mountains demolished for coal, rivers that have been damned, the ocean the animals.”
i mean you can flip back a year ago and read how i dont identify as radical and how i posit woc as a term of privilege in relationship to the third world women in response to being told by radical women of color basically — your life doesnt count like ours does. and that had more to do with us-centrism and the fact that i dont live in the us.
anyways, it was kinda weird. a bit draining. to see my approach to life decontextualized.
2. oh and to random birthy blog ladies who have their panties all in a tizzy because i told you, you dont save childbearing folk, they save themselves…
if you have time to write extensive critiques of me, then you have time to check your facts first, do some research, use the motherfucking google. because it seems to me it would be a better use of your time to understand what and who you are talking about rather than straight up attacking me on spurious self-righteous charges.
srsly though. this blog is written by a woman who a few months ago told me that i was such a great resource on anti-racism and imperialism when i made a comment on fb…so yeah…just to make a clear…
im not a fucking resource.
***inspired by something bfp said a few days ago…